its pretty sad that im used to having boring birthdays and doing nothing. i literally never do anything and my family seems to be busy working every year. but happy 18th birthday to myself, love me. i guess.
pepsi, snickers, lolipops and fake acid.
stevie - “theirs one left… who wants it?”
me - “oh im down” *joking around*
stevie “give it 5 minutes and you can have it”
turns out my other cousin took it and chase is like “just lick the bag” (around like 11) so i did thinking nothing much of it until i had a semi trip. days later i realized the acid was fake because nobody really saw things… my tounge felt as if it was going numb or like chargering like a battery. chase kept flashing a lighter in my face & it was the coolest thing. lights were extremely bright. the green exit sign in the lobby was super neon looking, all i could do is look at it. around the parents we all seemed normal and acted as if nothing happened. “don’t do crack or drop acid” - parent *hands us hotel key* we grabbed a pepsi, snickers and about 20 free lolipops and went to the room. we just chilled listening to music and dancing around. i was the happiest ive ever been and had so much energy. everything was funny af and i just was nonstop laughing. stevie’s pupils were huge so i decided to go look at mine. they looked like a pool of black water moving around, i was amazed. at one point it i was really hot so ran to my room to change from room 202 to 229 i ran down the halls and felt as if i could run forever and not stop. around 3am it kinda wore off & i would get depressed/bored but then someone would do something & id laugh my ass off. around 4am my dad calls yelling at me to go back to the room & i ran down the hall into the room & then eventually around idk what time fell asleep. in the end im glad it turned out not to be real cause i don’t think i could have handled it.
the about of regrets of what i did last night is insane. showing up at a my cousins friends house and got to drunk & high to point were people had to carry me out and home. my friend told me i was dropped on the street by a random kid carrying me and he just left me there, i must have blacked out… its all scary because i have no idea how im alive. my cousin saved my life by picking me up i guess and i dont know what i would do without him.